Tuesday, November 25, 2008

It's Tuesday

"Because, most of us all walk around as if we' re sleeping walking. We really don't experience the world fully, because we're half-asleep, doing things we automatically thing we have to do."

Today I fully aprpreciate this quote. I am breathing but I dont have clear vision. I dont have clear dream.

Once I read from a blog about what imagery you would think of your life. I had one imagery last time, like a clay.

But I think the clay is almost dry now, it is very difficult to be shaped, the clay also want to know what is its shape now. No answer, no body tell it. It is confused and lost.

It is tuesday. I learned about death today.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Weekends of Tuesday with Morrie

It has been quite some time for me to write something here, and also to read a novel book. It is because of my bad habbit of Procrastination. I am now trying to cut my negative habit of procrastination by writting something that touched me so much this weekend. I supposed to write about my 10 days training at Kkotongnae as I promised one of my friend and also about my trip to Chengdu, and some other things. Rather than making the list longer I guess the best solution is just start writing from what I have now.
So here I am, after finishing the 2nd book by Mitch Albom, Tuesday with Morrie. I borrowed these 2 books ( one more day and Tuesday with Morrie ) from my roommate. The last novel that I read is harry potter which was about 1 or 2 years ago. These two books are quite thin so I could finish it quite fast. ( maybe 2 weekends is considered slow for some of you hahaha). I am not going to give a book review,but rather about my experience and reflection reading this book.

For more excerpt or preview about the book please check it on wikipedia ( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tuesdays_With_Morrie)
I will go straight to my favorite chapter: The fourth Tuesday, we talked about Death.

Death is really the best topic that I love from this book, it serves me as a wake up call, slap on the face, or punch on my stomach. When something struck me real hurt it means that I am really weak on this ( I forgot where I heard or read about this )

My favorite part from this chapter :
" Once you learn how to die, you learn how to live .... , Because, most of us all walk around as if we' re sleeping walking. We really don't experience the world fully, because we're half-asleep, doing things we automatically thing we have to do. "
And facing death changes all that?
" Oh yes, You strip away all that stuff and you focus on the essentials. When you realize you are going to die you see everything much differently."

"Everyone knows they are going to die, but nobody believes it."

I love this part because it hit me so hard, I am that kind of person, I know that I am going to die, but I dont really believes it because I dont live my life fully. yet.

I know that I should doing what I love, living what I love, but the problem is.... I dont know exactly what it is.
I am still running here and there to find clues. I am still not at peace with my self. I dont know about you, but I really want to say that I know what I love, and I am doing what I love.

At the end of my life, I will be able to say I forgive all the things that I failed to do, but if I have a chance to repeat my life, I will do exactly the same thing that I did in my life.
I can feel it.... The sense of peace because of fulfillment.

I am still not settling down, I am open minded, searching for my true self, knowing what I love, and doing it.
By writing this, I discovered 1 clue, I love to share, I love to hear if there is anybody who could relate to what I am writing, and of course I could help them from my sharing.

I know that I am not alone, we are on the same quest. To our self discovery. Let us share and encourage one another.

Peace